Dream.....Do...Act...... and Achieve!

With God on my side I have nothing to loose, only things to gain.

zondag 17 februari 2008


Emagine your love for some one is so big that all you wanna do is talk about him or her... You just cant help it....

Its a great and crazy feeling, and when Im in love I always write songs and poems...

But there is one guy...and Im not in love with him, but I do love His songs, that has it all.

Let me introduce you to David! If he would be still alive He would be a very very old men. He lived more than 2000 years a go in the hills of Israel, where he was a shepperd.

His story and his amazing songs are written down in the bible. Not only is his story just very awesome and even exiting to read, his songs are very deep.

He is a treu poet!
David went trough a lot of sh*t, he cheated, he killed, he was in danger of being murdered by the king, etc. Just read in the bible, even if you dont believe that there is a God, his story is cool enough just as it is!

David had an intence relationship with God... He trusted despide all the shit he did and happend to him.

He wrote his feelings down. They're called the psalms, and still millions of people read them and sing them. So this guy did it, if he would be alive now he would def got a golden record....I think more than one! He would be a rockstar, a big one!!!


A simple man that wrote amazing lirics, that still, describe a lot of our emotions to day. Some are like prayers others like lovesongs. Some are very depressing, others are beautiful and ment to praise God.

check this one out:

Its Psalm 139, you might have heard of it before....
(A psalm by David for the music leader.)
The Lord Is Always Near

You have looked deep
into my heart, Lord,
and you know all about me.

You know when I am resting
or when I am working,
and from heaven
you discover my thoughts.

You notice everything I do
and everywhere I go.

Before I even speak a word,
you know what I will say,
and with your powerful arm
you protect me
from every side.

I can't understand all of this!
Such wonderful knowledge
is far above me.

Where could I go to escape
from your Spirit
or from your sight?

If I were to climb up
to the highest heavens,
you would be there.
If I were to dig down
to the world of the dead
you would also be there.

Suppose I had wings
like the dawning day
and flew across the ocean.
Even then your powerful arm
would guide and protect me.
Or suppose I said, “I'll hide
in the dark
until night comes
to cover me over.”

But you see in the dark
because daylight and dark
are all the same to you.

You are the one
who put me together
inside my mother's body,

and I praise you
because of
the wonderful way
you created me.

Everything you do is marvelous!
Of this I have no doubt.
Nothing about me
is hidden from you!

I was secretly woven together
deep in the earth below,
but with your own eyes
you saw
my body being formed.
Even before I was born,
you had written in your book
everything I would do.

Your thoughts are far beyond
my understanding,
much more than I
could ever imagine.

I try to count your thoughts,
but they outnumber the grains
of sand on the beach.
And when I awake,
I will find you nearby.

How I wish that you would kill
all cruel and heartless people
and protect me from them!

They are always rebelling
and speaking evil of you.

You know I hate anyone
who hates you, Lord,
and refuses to obey.

They are my enemies too,
and I truly hate them.

Look deep into my heart, God,
and find out everything
I am thinking.

Don't let me follow evil ways,
but lead me in the way
that time has proven true.

vrijdag 15 februari 2008

You're all I want, You're all I need, You're Everything!

You should all take a look at this video.

It opened my eyes....again...... Its sad how many time God has to show us how much He loves us and cares for our lives!! At the same time it's amazing, and unbelieveble, that God cares so much for you and me!!

As the lirics in the song sound; How can I stand here with You, and not be mooved by You....! Every moment I choose to be with Him I get mooved by His love and His mercy.

In my short life (yes I am almost 25 but that doesnt meen I am OLD! ;) ) I have messed up so many times, I broke prommises and friendships, I have struggeled with things that no one knows about.

Just like you...Im guessing...since we're all human....

And still Gods love runs trough my vains...again... And again He tells me His love for me is unconditional and tru.

And so much more than I could ever emagine.

He is not a God that tells us to leave as soon as we mess up, but every time we do, He comes closer to us and tells us to trie again this time with Him....

So I trie again........

thank you! I love You Lord!

woensdag 13 februari 2008

Home sweet home....or not....

Its two am, and I finalily fall a sleep in my own bed. Still recovering the jetlag.

My eyes are open again... As I get dressed the sun shines in to my room and warms the floor. Nice! I put on my short skirt and tinktop, grab my flipflops and my new longboard an head outside for a ride!! The smile on my face hurts my cheeks...
I close my eyes for a second and listen to the weels hitting the road. Its almost a perfect ritme, for a new not written yet, song. The trees are passing by, and I can smell the ocean.

Than I lay down, and watch the sunset, the waves finishing my song. I cant believe how beautiful it is here, the grass is supergreen, the sky pure bleu, and my skin is getting tanned!
Someone buys me a coffee and I pick up a bagel at Kona's. Breakfest outside is the best right?!

Back downtown I meet up with some friends and we head to a club to dance our bud of! Its great, the beat, the music, the people, the drinks....
I look over and a guy with big blond curls smiles at me. He grabs my arm and we start dancing together... Im surprised, he's an awsome dancer!!
Than after a long sweaty night of dancing he walks me home, kisses me goodnight and dissapears...


Im tired and want to go to bed, but cant find it.... Have I been drinking that much? No, thats impossible, I never drink to much.....

I knock on a door.... again, but no one anwers...
Than after a few times trieing I hear someone else knocking... What the.....
I open my eyes, look into my own room and see its dark and cold outside. My roommate knoks on my door asking me if I got home yet, and how my trip to San Diego was...
I sit up, hit my head against the sealing (grmbl!!!!) and listen to the rain. Its freezing.

Shit.... I am back home.

maandag 11 februari 2008

Song for Jessie!

As I met Jessie and got to know her a litle more she inspired me to write this song;
her art inspired by the death of her father made me feel so small, and realise how short and fragile life is;
JESSIE this is for you!

I know he left you
you know he was going to
his death his face inspired you
and the letter you wrote
is like an ode
to him

Now you go on and with a future before you
still the pain left and the tears to explain
but you are strong and let it all in
with a new open door to go trough

Its the power and the wisdom
its the life and love you came from
its an open ending and will never close
its the rain that stops the silence
its the world that tells you all
that life goes on and there is no time to
stand up or fall down

but you breath and break
you create and take
make it yours make it yours and believe
that your future is here!

From San Diego back home and a song for Jessie

After three weeks away Im back home. And its good, but I do miss San Diego and the people I met there.

Im not sure how good this holiday was. With all my expectations and goals, I kind a feel like I failed. But than again, I got home yesterday and still have a yetleg so, Im just gonna give it some time.

Besides all my thoughts and goals I had a good time being there. Meeting the people I met and being surrounded by all their creativiti was great!

I find San Diego a city where so many creative people live. Close to the beach and with almost always sunshine you just wanna make and create things, right, sing etc. Its an interesting place to hang out for a while, and I still have the desire to go back again, hopefully in may but def in june!

It depense on my job and financial situation.

Hopefully Ill be able to live out what I stand for than, and live up to my believes...

Right now Im having a hard time finding an answer to my question what do I believe. But thats good I guess, it makes me think again about what I stand for, and what place God has in my life. And I know, that this is a good place to be in, trieing to figger stuf out. Struggel with things in life is never a bad thing! It makes us grow and I believe that everytime we strugle, fall down and stand up again, we come closer to the person that God desires us to be.

I don need to focus though, and that was hard in San Diego. Testing my faith is not one of my favorite things!

I just hope that the people that I met saw a litle bit of Gods grace and His beauti in me. He is the one that created me, and for that I cant do anything else but let Him in and be thankfull for this amazing time! All good things come from Him!

Another thing to figger out, what is good and what is bad, or wrong and write....

For now, I am blessed with great new friends, a great time, and a desire to go back to this beautiful city and sunshine!